My way


In all the big questions,
answered and unanswered
the thirst and hunger,
we forgot that we can Feel

Love is feeling
that is real,
Love is answer
of the prayer

Love is the one that you find
in every fortune and happiness
Love also an empty space
after tears
after anger
and confusion
A gate
and way out

Love
is sunshine..
apple of my eyes
breeze in my soul
wherever it stays in my heart

Welcome Ramadhan..
Let's fall in love..

only eternity


Sst..
stop talking..
can we just stop the talk
and enjoy this beauty
let time leave us


without past
without future
without definition
without word

Stay still
let it touch you
feel ..
deep down
endless well of the soul
feel..



: picture by vincent van gogh (1890)

a fine wednesday afternoon

Nothing special today, except I realize more that life is a short contemporary artificial rhyme and rhythm. A passage. A special one, because I'm still in it now in the gigantic maze of mystery.

I still see human's life as a satire, a performance of an amnesia, in desperate attempt to unveil the cloak of meaning. hungry of light. meaning. Why we are here?

Even the angel asked God's in the moment of creation, the qur'an says:

When God said to the angel"I am going to place in the earth a khalif, they said: What! wilt Thou place in it such as shall make mischief in it and shed blood, and we celebrate Thy praise and extol Thy holiness? He said: Surely I know what you do not know" ( 2: 30)

Some, maybe hundreds, of man and woman bring the message of the One's and Only Creator, and basically say "this world is worth to live in, live and do good deeds to have heaven waiting for you.. ".

Then, we hear story of how our ancestors, Human, who is sure enough to bear the mandate that is rejected by the heavens and earth and mountain .. to be a Khalif.., to extend God's dimension, to be His representative in this Universe.

Our ancestors, the oldies, they have too much confident, aren't they? :), I wouldn't say arrogance.. But even the qur'an says:

Surely We offered the trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains, but they refused to be unfaithful to it and feared from it, and man has turned unfaithful to it; surely he is unjust, ignorant; (33: 72)

its relieving to know that God's confirms my opinion.. pheew.. ..

But trough Muhammad the messenger, God's also ask us to ponder a riddle, He said:
""I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known, so I created"

Looks like there is something special between Man and God, where He created this universe for man just to know Him.

But, we are, okay, me just a silly clown diving the material realm, buried my heart over the hedge, and forget everything..

Suddenly, I am here. With seem unbearable task, finding the Hidden treasure.

but, maybe its not unbearable at all because God says, :

"And when My servants ask you concerning Me, then surely I am very near; I answer the prayer of the suppliant when he calls on Me..." (2: 183)

Ring a bell? an empty paper of Dragon teaching ? No secret recipe at All? Kara? Giving in? Berserah Diri?

Believe. just Jump. and God is near..

Believe. and I will find You?

Im still pondering the riddle...

What a fine afternoon today